Post 8: An Artist I love

Lately I’ve been very obsessed with an argentine writer called Alejandra Pizarnik. She is the darkest poetess I ever read... very intense but, for that reason, she explores very deep feelings. She was born in 1936, she studied Philosophy, Journalism and Literature, but she left all of them before finishing to dedicate to write. After that she lived in Paris with all the cosmopolitan artists of her time, like Julio Cortázar. She ended killing herself at the age of 36 years old with an overdose. I started reading her Complete Poetry a few years ago, but since September this year what I’ve been reading is her diary, which she wrote at my age. It is very surprising to me to discover all her complex thoughts and feelings. She always talks about writing a novel, what she never got to do, and this diary is written in a very special way, like a poetic prose but also a stream of consciousness. It is really inspiring to me, because I love poetry and I do poetry when I write my songs, I think it’s a very important part of the process, so I’m always in the search of good referents. It happens to me that many times I feel very identified with A.P, because she has really lucid moments, reflections about love, about death, about being an artist and about making decisions in life, but it’s also a little creepy to feel identified with a woman who killed herself after thinking all of this. I really hope I don’t end up like her having such a tragic end. Her last verses was something like this (translated by me):

"I don't wanna go

nothing but

till the bottom"